Hope Village Prey Veng

"That's Chong Chit. Oh, and that's Songha, Vitmol, Vanet, Sopheap....", my fingers busy pointing as the list goes on. Why was I so excited about these children on television? I realise one thing: Perhaps I do miss them. Though I only spent about 3 months with them, the last month being the one where I really got to know them better, I think there was a kind of bond which you will only realise after you have left. I miss those smiles, the laughter, the time spent playing games together, speaking simple English and Khmer to each other, being a 'big brother' to them and just simply hanging out. Maybe it is Cambodia. Maybe it is the children. Maybe it is the vision I received years ago. or maybe it is just something God has deposited in my heart. I will visit them again someday, God willing.

I just wanna worship you, Jesus

Who am I Lord? If not for you, I will still be in darkness. If not for you, I am as nothing. It has been a stormy season but I will choose to worship you. The whole world can come crumbling down but I will still choose to worship you. For who am I before you Lord? I just wanna worship you Jesus. I just wanna sit at your feet and enjoy your presence. I just wanna worship you.

Here's a really beautiful song by Casting Crowns. You'll be touched by it. Come worship Jesus again.


Who am I - by Casting Crowns
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

God knows

Quotes:
"For a servant of God to have authority in every sentence he utters, he must first suffer for the message he is to deliver. Without great tribulation, there is no great illumination." — John Sung, 20th-century Chinese evangelist

"The future is as bright as the promises of God." — Adoniram Judson, (1788-1850)

God knows. Trials come for a purpose. Have you forgotten James 1:2-4? Do not think you are weak when you refuse to go against the tide. Let God take charge. He knows. In His time, He will reveal. In His time, He will pave the way. Listen to Him and you will know what to do.

Do not think you are alone. For great men and women of God face such dilemmas too. Learn from them. Look at William Carey, Hudson Taylor, Jackie Pullinger and many others. Times of long waiting, lack of understanding from churches, criticism of 'radical' approaches such as dressing like the natives, problems with an ineffective mission board, application rejected by every missionary organization. What else is new under the sun?

Look to God my friend. Listen to Him and remember His words.

"That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." - 2 Cor 12:10

"From the east I summon a bird of prey; from a far-off land, a man to fulfill my purpose. What I have said, that will I bring about; what I have planned, that will I do." - Isaiah 46:11

God is BIG enough. He knows.

Indignant

I am indignant because:
The bible talks a lot about the poor but the church is doing nothing about them

I am indignant because:
Christians have forgotten to follow the example of Christ: Humility, suffering, forgiving, bearing with one another,love

I am indignant because:
The church has become a complex institution and not a complete community of believers serving the Lord

I am indignant because:
Church leaders think they understand mission work but would not find out why mission work in their church is non-existent or ineffective

I am indignant because:
We think we are kingdom-minded but we would not contact the church next door for a cup of coffee nor work together for His sake

I am indignant because:
I am blinded and judgemental even now as I 'judge'.

Disclaimer: Everything referred here is in general. It does not mean all churches or all christians.

Conclusion: "Rejoice always; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God's WILL for you in Christ Jesus" - 1 Thess 5:16-18.

And get rid of that negative and judgemental spirit!!!

2nd Year Anniversary

Time really flies by. This is the exact day I left East Timor 2 years ago. The immigration stamp on my passport reminded me of my short-lived days there. I have learned much in these 2 years and for that, I am grateful.

I am just wondering how long my patience will last. It is indeed wearing thin. Very soon, it will be the 3rd year. Will I be back by then? Or will I still be in Singapore? Am I now a bird in a cage? Or a bird in training? Maybe I am both. Both are well-fed and well-taken care of. But neither one taste real freedom.

Ah, do I see water in the desert and streams in the wasteland? Only God will show. I will commit my life to you O God, and I will go when the time is up, God willing.

"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Hope in Him and praise Him. For He is my Saviour and my God" ~ taken from the Psalms


Halo Orasaun - A Prayer
Nai Jesus, ajuda hau hare ita-bot. Ita-bot bele loke odamatan. Ita-bot bele fo hau esperansa. Hau sei hare Ita-bot. Hau sei tuir Ita-bot. Hau fiar Ita-bot. Hau hadomi Ita-bot. Nai Jesus, mai, mai. Mai ajuda Timor. Mai ajuda hau fila fali. Hau fiar Ita-bot.

Courageous Waiting and Suffering

In the middle of a prayer time yesterday, God dropped this in my heart - "It takes a lot more courage to wait and suffer than to quit and go." What a trial.

"For to you it has been granted on behalf of Christ, not only to believe in Him, but also to suffer for His sake" ~ Phil 1:29 (NKJV)

"Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!" ~ Psalm 27:14


O Lord, strengthen my heart. I have nothing to draw from except that which is from you. Let me abide in you always. Amen.

The Little Ones Are Waiting

"many things can wait, the child cannot... to him, we cannot say tomorrow; his name is today"

These words from a UNICEF office caught me. How often do we say tomorrow? "Wait a while more and see. Do not be rash. Others are helping." Frankly speaking, what else is there to "see"? What is so rash about giving some money so that a child's life can be rescued? Who doesn't know that there are many organizations helping needy children but are there enough?!

We can reason all we want and some reasoning are not invalid(but still incomplete). My question therefore is: ARE YOU PLAYING YOUR PART IN SAVING LIVES, ESPECIALLY THE LITTLE ONES? What are you doing with that extra money you have every month? Do you not know that your money can go a long way in helping a child? Do you know there are many many worthy organizations with a worthy cause you can give to in saving lives? Waiting & doing NOTHING makes you and me a murderer. Yes, a murderer.

Imperfect and limited as we are, we ought to do at least our bit - in small or big ways for the little ones. If you would like to know how you can help, email me at: revivalgen.jasonlee@gmail.com. I will provide you information and links to organizations that are doing their part in helping needy children and saving lives.

Matthew 25:41-46
Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'
"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'
"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

You've been warned.

Wake up!

"Every kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and every city or household divided against itself will not stand." ~ Matthew 12:25

This a crucial wake up to pray. If the house is divided, it will NOT stand. Let us not be ignorant to the scheme of the enemy but forgive each other. Do not be caught in his trap (2 Cor 2:10-11).

Pray my friends, pray.

Bear with the Defects of Others

I will quote some phrases from the timeless classic, "Of the Imitation of Christ" by Thomas Kempis, and share what I have learned from it. Be encouraged.

"Those things that a man approves not in himself or others he ought to suffer patiently, until God orders things otherwise." - Bear with things you do not approve of or do not agree with until God orders otherwise. He's in charge, worry not.

"If one who is once or twice warned will not stay, contend not with him, but commit all to God, that His will may be done (Matt 6:10), and He be honoured in all His servants, who well know how to turn evil into good." - If after speaking to a person about a certain matter and he does not listen, do not contend any longer with him. Instead, commit precious time to God in prayer. He will do what He wills, and He can turn any bad situation into good ones. Trust in Him steadfastly.

"Endeavour to be patient in bearing with the defects and infirmities of others, of whatever sort they be; for you also have many failings which must be borne with by others (1 Thess 5:15, Gal 6:1)" - We are in the same boat. Many times we complain, criticise or disapprove of another person, but we would not do that to ourselves. Fact is, we seldom weigh our neighbour in the same balance as ourselves. We must humble ourselves before God and before man.

"No man is without fault, no man without his burden, no man sufficient of himself, no man wise enough of himself. But we ought to bear with one another, comfort one another, help, instruct, and admonish one another (1 Cor 12:25, 1 Thess 5:14)" - Remember this. No one person is greater than another. All are important, all are subjected to Christ. Build each other up.

"Occasions of adversity discover best how great virtue each one has. For such occasions do not make a man frail, but they reveal what sort he is" - There is great training and reward in bearing with the defects of others. Let us become more like the Master. He knows and He cares.

Revival in Troubled Times

"Enlarge the place of your tent,
stretch your tent curtains wide,
do not hold back;
lengthen your cords,
strengthen your stakes" ~ Isaiah 54:2

"God, are you sure I am hearing right?", I asked. At this junction, this verse is certainly very puzzling. I thought the tent is looking shaky and need some repair work, but You want us to enlarge it? As I ponder, God seems to say, "Why not? Look at the bible. Did revival happen in pleasant times or troubled times?"

Moses led the Israelites out of Egypt - What happened before that? "...I have heard them crying out...I am concerned...I have come down to rescue them..", the LORD said. (Exodus 3:7-10). Then I remembered the book of Judges - God raised up judges to deliver His people whenever His people are suffering greatly and cried out to Him. Nehemiah cried out to the Lord and the Lord rebuilt the walls of Jerusalem in the midst of great adversity. The disciples did not know what to do after Jesus ascended to heaven but they were constantly praying together (Acts 1:14) and as we know, the Holy Spirit came on Pentecost and revival hit the land. The times were even harder in Acts chapter 8, but as we read, the Kingdom of God expanded even further in the midst of persecution.

So what's so strange about this verse in troubled times? Nothing. It is only strange to us because we have made God soooo small in our eyes. Forgive us Lord. Rally us to pray and cry out to you like never before. I know you will hear us. Yes Lord, you will hear us. And you will work great wonders before our teary eyes.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." ~ Joshua 1:9

Resurrection of Fire-filled Prayer

This is a season of prayer for me - I have no doubt about it. A week ago, my friend told me, "You need to go on a higher 'dimension' of prayer. Pray till the breakthrough come. Cry out to Him. Get hold of portions of scriptures. God will reveal things through His word. Persevere in intense prayer."

A very good friend preached - "Behind every vision that is given and fulfilled are faceless and nameless saints who have paid the price on their knees - in much prayer and intercession. Labour in prayer!"

As I begin to engaged myself in more intense prayer, God's word became more alive. He begins, first of all, by showing me what I need to repent of. Lack of faith & unbelief, fear & disobedience and even to release forgiveness. He then begin to direct me to scriptures and show me what I need to do. It is awesome.

1. Accept the frailty of man - No man is perfect. I need to forgive man of his wrongs as much as I need man to forgive me of my wrongs. I shall elaborate this further in another post.

2. Do all things without grumbling or disputing - Phil 2:14-15. So that we may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish. More in another post.

God begins to 'quicken' my spirit and He begins to speak. I'm hearing. I'm catching the fire. I'm ALIVE!!! ROAAARRRR

Beyond Summary - At the Crux

This weekend has been a most powerful and refreshing one. God brought into remembrance the workings of Him in my life and to fan into flame the gifts which He has given me. I remembered. I cried. I wept for souls. I surrender again. I was blind but now I see. I see what has been missing from my life, what has been dormant, what has been snuffed.

There is too much to say. The presence of God so powerful, so assuring, so awesome. I can linger on and on in praise and worship at the altar of my God. There were Spirit-led prayers that ministered deep into the hearts of my friends, there were God-birthed encouragement that can only come from the Lord because no one had knowledge of that matter but when spoken, both parties exclaimed in wonder at the confirmation.

I want to commit my life to God again. I will ask the Lord to make me a soul winner for His sake. I will ask the Lord to deliver my church from our iniquities and foolishness. "O Lord, have mercy on us. We have cast aside your will and follow blindly our ways. Turn us from our foolishness and help us do the things we did at first when we were madly in love with You. Be patient with us and do not forsake us. Forgive us and deliver us from the curse. Help each and everyone of us to walk in step with Your Spirit and bear Your fruits. May we live lives that are worthy of the gospel of Christ, and glorify your name always. Amen"

"I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place." ~ Revelation 2:2-5

God of the Impossible - Watch Him Defy Your Odds

I felt a certain sense of peace even in the midst of this uncertainty. What's it gonna be? For 2 years in a row, I have been given only a one year renewal for my PR re-entry permit. The norm is 5 years. Logically, I would say I still lack the criteria for a 5 years renewal but somehow, it felt different this time. My LG and friends were roped in to pray and God had answered our prayers. I had been given 5 years! This time no questions asked, no higher-ranked officer handling my case and the renewal process finished within 10 minutes. How's that for a hallelujah to God? Yes! Praise His mighty name!

God is just so good. He knows how much this renewal meant to me, and He has given me the first step. I can go anyway up to 5 years without having to return - that is really really going to be helpful in my work. As I sat waiting for my turn in the renewal process and reading my bible, these verses reminded me of His goodness:

"For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
the LORD bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.
O LORD Almighty,
blessed is the man who trusts in you." ~ Psalm 84:11-12

Impossible you say? "For nothing is impossible with God" - Luke 1:37. And He showed up again today. What an awesome God I serve. Just gotta trust and obey. He'll work all things out. Yes, He will.

When I Survey the Wondrous Cross

Love demands my soul....love demands my soul...my life, my all.... Is that you? Has such a love demands your soul and your all? May this song remind and challenge you in your devotion to the Lord again.



When I Surveyed (The Wondrous Cross) By Kathryn Scott

When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of Glory died
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride

Forbid it Lord that I should boast
Save in the death of Christ my God
All the vain things that charm me most
I sacrifice them to His blood

See from His head His hands His feet
Sorrow and love flow mingled down
Did ere such love and sorrow meet
Or thorns compose so rich a crown

Were the whole realm of nature mine
That were an offering far too small
Love so amazing so divine
Demands my soul
Demands my soul
Love demands my soul
My life my all

Are you giving to the poor?

This serves as a reminder for us, followers of Jesus Christ.

Excerpt from the book, "Anthropological Insights for Missionaries", in Chapter 11 - The Unfinished Task.

"David Barrett points out that 780 million people today live in absolute poverty, a condition of life defined by the World Bank as a condition "so characterized by malnutrition, illiteracy and disease as to be beneath any reasonable definition of human decency". Roughly 500 million of these needy are on the edge of starvation, and another 1.5 billion are malnourished.

Of the 125 million babes born in 1981, 12 million died before their first birthday, and another 5 million will not see their fifth birthday. One child in four suffers from malnutrition; four of every five children lack adequate health care. The poorest children are often parents themselves: 40 percent of the first births in the Two-Thirds World are to girls fifteen years old or younger.

In contrast to this, the 1.5 billion followers of Christ own two-thirds of the world's resources and have an average yearly income more than three times that of non-Christians. Not all Christians, however, are materially wealthy. Almost 200 million live in absolute poverty, while 750 million of their fellow Christians live in affluence. Although most well-off Christians support relief, on an average they give less than 3 percent of their income to Christian ministries. If they were to give even a tithe, Barrett concludes that "to a large extent, the global sharingby Christians of money, wealth, property, and goods could solve most of the problems of famine, poverty, disease, unemployment, dangerous water supply and so on"

Are you heading towards the right direction? Or are there holes in your pocket? Start giving.

"For there will never cease to be poor in the land. Therefore I command you, 'You shall open wide your hand to your brother, to the needy and to the poor, in your land.'" - Deut 15:11(ESV)

Don't we dare forget that.

Can I receive love but not follow?

Lord - Our King. One whom we worship. One whom we subject ourselves to. One whom we bow down and worship.

Saviour - Our Redeemer. One who saves. One who purchased us by His blood. One who rescues us from our sins and condemnation.

Master - Our Great Teacher. One who teach with His total being. One whose ways are perfect. One whose ways we seek to follow.

Friend - Our Closest Companion. One who walks with us through all ups and downs. One who make known His inmost thoughts to us. One who never leaves us even when we had left.

Who is Jesus to you? Is He only saviour to you? Is He only a friend to you? Or is He your Lord and Master as well? Let us not forget that Christ is all and He want us to know Him in all His fullness and greatness. This is but a mere description of Him in what human words can describe.

Let us not be ignorant. We must follow Him and become more like Him each day. And let us not kid ourselves on a job well-done when someone makes a 'decision' for Jesus only to say 'I cannot commit(in following His ways).' Has the person really believe and turn from his sins? Maybe yes, maybe no. But Jesus must be Lord and Master as well.

"Oh how far we have fallen! Oh how little we have to draw from! Stories from the past have served to remind us again and again of our lack and want of prayers and love. I have fallen short too. Way too short. May the Lord open our eyes to our deficiencies. May He moved His people to become more like Him. To be really more like Him. Amen"

"I was with you in weakness and in fear and in much trembling, and my message and my preaching were not in persuasive words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, so that your faith would not rest on the wisdom of men, but on the power of God." - 1 Cor 2:3-5.

Dear brothers and sisters, are we missing something in our sharing of the gospel? And receive a 'result' that is equally deficient too? May His mighty wind blow again.

I Beat My Body

"Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize" ~ 1 cor 9:25-27

Yes Lord. This is not an easy time. It is a time of further moulding and grinding and it is indeed tough. But Lord, you are my strength and my shield. You will lift up my gloom and my countenance shall shine again. I will run with perseverance the race marked out for me. I will fix my eyes on you and will not grow weary and lose heart. I have not yet resisted to the point of shedding blood, have I? Grant me strength that I may endure hardship as discipline, that the pain may produce a harvest of righteousness and peace when I have been trained by it. Let me not shirk any responsibilities or complain about my tasks. But let me do all things with all joy with a sincere heart. I will give thanks to you Lord for you are good. Your love endures forever. Amen.

Wonderful Friends, Wonderful Saviour

Today we met at Manna, a Korean restuarant near Raffles Place and we had a sumptuous meal. The price is a bit hefty for me but worth every penny of my time with such friends. Ex-colleagues that stay in touch and get together every now and then don't come along easily. Especially not when most of us had left the company about 5-6 years ago. Friends are a blessing.

We talked about everything and anything to do with our lives and interests. We talked about health issues, about investment and money, about other friends who were not able to join us, about travelling and holidays, and about good ol' memories.

It seemed so natural as if we were still in the same company. As if we haven't grown older. As if we haven't part company and went on our way to other countries and companies. It was a delight to meet, eat and talk the night away. Such a blessing and such wonderful people.

I wish these wonderful people will know Christ someday. I wish they will have an even more abundant life than what they are having now. I wish they will find the best gift and joy they can find in Jesus. I wish, I wish. I must start praying.

Humility and the Restful Heart

Excerpt from the book, Companion to the Poor, in italics
In Andrew Murray's definition of humility, it is a perfect quietness of the heart; it is never sore or irritated or disappointed. It is to expect nothing, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to be at rest when nobody praises me and when I am blamed and despised.

Such a high order yet Christ show us it is attainable by His example. And a great many saints displayed this too, except that none was perfect except for Christ. What struck me most is - "to be at rest when I am blamed and despised".

The human nature is such that we instinctively defend ourselves or get worked up when we are blamed and despised. Our ego cries out for "fairness" and seek to defend its right to look good. It cannot withstand false accusations, wrongful blame and hard sayings.

Don't get me wrong. I am not saying we should not explain ourselves in sticky situations but in a lot of matters, there is actually no need to defend ourselves. If you think hard enough about the battles you have fought before, you realised that you could actually brush most of them aside for the sake of peace.

But sometimes, it is really so hard to bite the bullet isn't it? But thanks be to God for His perfect example. I will seek to follow Christ in all His ways and imitate His way of life through the help of the Holy Spirit. I will bow down and submit to you Lord, and my heart shall be at rest.

"When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly." - 1 Peter 2:23

"If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone." - Romans 12:18

Tension

I am no expert in the subject of humility. I know the pride in my life and how I flash it in times of weaknesses. Pride is such a dangerous weapon that our deceitful heart often do not recognise Pride when it is being manifested in our actions and speech. Jesus is the perfect example of a person who had defeated pride. Phil 2:5-11 paints such a beautiful picture of Christ's humility and the life He lived. It is indeed something to be grasped, and something to emulate in our lives.

I am still very much a timid but brash child of God sometimes. I know the rebel in me, and the hot, zealous blood flowing through my veins. Having the winning mentality is detrimental sometimes, and I must admit that it can have a devastating effect in my soul. But the Kingdom of God is not about winning or losing - it is about running and finishing the race; and it is about helping someone to join in the race and guide him along. Oh, how hard it is to submit sometimes! How hard it is to admit defeat! But Christ did all that. His submission and defeat was necessary for the salvation of mankind and victory. The end is so much sweeter than the immediate results but the process so agonising.

But as of now, I am consumed by my zealousness. My eyes are blocked by my passion and my ears began to shut down. I imagine the worst and I geared myself up for war. I am ready to die for such a cause! but a timely advice cool my blood. I put down my sword and armour for a moment and recollect my thoughts. What has He said? What is He saying? Let there be confirmation. That I might not rouse a war without sound counsel from 2 or 3. May God be my judge! and Counsellor.

"Help me to submit to you O Lord. Search my heart and cleanse my thoughts. Let me do everything without complaining and arguing. Let those who wants to win, win. But as for me, let me run the race with love. The love that always forgive, always bear, always peaceful, always smile and always care. Amen"